Jacoba06

HIATUS

2009-03-06T09:54:58Z

Fanfic: Crack the shudders open wide

2009-03-01T16:34:00Z

Title: Crack the shudders open wide
Author: jacoba06
Pairing: Sam, Dean/OFC
Rating: R
Prompt: None, just got an idea and kind of went with it
Summary: There was this girl .. .. ..
Warnings: None I think

Soft light of almost spent candles illuminate the bathroom. Tiny drops of condensed water trickle down the mirror. The only sound is the tip tip tip as water drops dare to disturb the even water that her body is almost fully submerged in. Her skin is pale … even her lips have lost their luscious color. Next to the bath there is a glass of red dry wine, hardly touched; the empty open bottle resting on the counter in the kitchen with a piece of paper tucked in beneath it.

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The wood splinters as his foot lands hard and fast to burst his way in.

"LENA? LENA!"

Dean’s voice is urgent as he scans the apartment, his eyes pausing for the briefest of moments on the counter and the bottle standing there. Sam follows into the apartment and makes his way to her bedroom.

"She’s not in here … check the bathroom."

Dean gives no indication that he’s heard Sam.

"Dean!"

Dean snaps his head towards him and he repeats himself.

"Check the bathroom."

Again his foot lands hard when he finds that the door won’t open. The heavy wood swings out of his way, the gust of wind it makes blowing out some of the small candles.

"Sam! … LENA!"

He lifts her out of the water, her body limp in his arms. Then Sam is there, wrapping towels around her writs. Dean wipes the hair from her forehead, rocks her a little and lets his lips rest there softly.

"It’s okay … it’s gonna be okay. I’ve got you. Hold on, you hear me, just hold on."

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The corridor is quiet, the lights bright and harsh. The swing doors open but it’s the squeaking sound that the doctor’s shoes make that gets Deans’ attention. He jumps up to meet him half way.

"She’s lost a lot of blood. She’s unconscious. We’ve stitched her up and we’re trying our best, but it doesn’t look good. You should go get some rest, if her condition changes we’ll let you know."

The doctor reassuringly pats him on the shoulder before turning and walking back through the swinging doors.

He didn’t realize that Sam had also jumped up and was standing close behind him to hear what the doctor had said. He almost bumps into him as he turns to talk to him.

"Sammy … I …"

He stops mid sentence and before Sam can say anything, Dean starts heading towards the door labeled EXIT in big red and black letters.

"Dean!"

He sighs as he runs his hands through his almost too long hair. The nurse behind the emergency counters’ hand has stopped writing and she looks at Deans’ back as it disappears into the night. When Sam looks up, she drops her head again.

He picks up his jacket, shrugs it on and also heads out the door.

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My dearest Dean,

I wanted to write you something that would explain how I feel about you. How you saved me when everything seemed to crash in on me.

You’re forever my knight in shining armor. There aren’t words …

Dean starts ripping at the piece of paper, his anger and sadness tearing through him. He closes his eyes and the tears that run down his cheek are salty and bitter on his lips. How could he have loved her so much? He’s only barely gotten to know her.

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Sam knocks on the bathroom door.

"Dean? It’s time …"

Silence. Then he hears him moving on the other side. The door opens and Dean walks over to the bed, picks up his duffel and starts piling his clothes into it.

"I’m not going."

Sam doesn’t know what to say, just stands awkwardly and watches his brother in silence.

"What? Not gonna try and persuade me? Tell me how I have to be there."

- "No, it's just ... Look, I do think you need to be there. To put it behind you."

"This was her choice! I tried to help her … I tried to be there ..."

Dean sits on the bed, his shoulders slouching.

"I don’t want to fight Sam. I can’t … I can’t bury her."

A few strides carry him across the room and he sits at the bottom of the bed, his back towards Dean.

"Dean, I understand, but you can’t blame yourself for this. Lena was … she saw some bad things, but you saved her Dean."

- "I saved her? I gave her nightmares … I … I ruined her life."

"Ruined her life? Are you hearing yourself?"

Sam is suddenly enraged, he’s on his feet and in a blink of an eye he’s standing in front of his brother, pulling him onto his feet.

"You’re the one that’s always said to me ‘We can’t save them all’ but we try Dean. That’s what we do. We try! But sometimes …"

He lets his brother go and turns away, Dean can hear the resigned tone in his voice.

"Sometimes it isn’t enough to just save someone. Dean, we’ve seen some horrible things. It haunts us, but we move on. We put it behind us and we move on."

Dean opens his mouth to speak but Sam is already half way out the door.

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She’s standing in front of the fireplace with nothing on. He’s lying on the make-shift bed looking up at her.

"Come back to me."

- "I thought you were sleeping," she says and lays back down next to him.

"I was and had the most wonderful dream."

- "Oh really? Tell me more."

"Well see, thing is, I’m more of a ‘show’ type of guy."

She giggles as he touches her.

"I knew there was a reason I kept you around."

He kisses her neck, lets his hand cup her shoulder while the other is pulling her close against him. A soft moan escapes from her lips.

She hitches her leg over his hip, feels his hard length push against her and moves her hips slightly.

"Don’t … do that."

He hardly gets the words spoken. Moves his hand to hold her hips steady.

"Dean ... please ... need you inside me ... God ..."

She wraps her fingers in his short hair, pulls his lips off her so he looks in her eyes. She kisses him, deep and hard. He moves his hand between her thighs, feels her warm, wet heat against his fingers.

He shifts his hips, guides himself into her. A heavy breath flows from between his clenched lips. Lifting her leg higher, taking him deeper and they start to move in unison. His hand has moved into her hair, his fingers entangled in the dark mess.

Her nails dig into his back as she clenches around him. Her foot digs into his lower back, pushing him flush against her. He bites down on her lip gently, but hard enough for it to sting as he loses himself in her. There are stars behind his shut eyelids and he breaks their kiss, his eyes fly open as he gasps for air.

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"Dean? Dean wake up."

Dean eyes shoot open, Sam’s hand gripping his shoulder.

"It’s ok, I think you were having another nightmare."

Dean can feel he’s hard and he’s glad that he’s lying with his back to his brother.

"I’m okay …"

- "It was Lena again, wasn’t it? Dean, you have to let it go …"

"I said I’m okay Sam. God!"

He swings himself off the bed and heads into the bathroom shutting the door hard behind him. He braces himself against the basin and he can’t help the smile that curves his lips.

"Not all memories are always bad Sammy."

He runs a cold shower and gasps as the water runs across his back, sending a shiver down his spine.

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xxxFINxxx

FIC: Intangible evidence

2009-01-08T16:00:02Z

Title: Intangible evidence
Author: Jacoba06
Pairing: Dean/OFC
Rating: NC-17
Prompt: None, just got an idea and kind of went with it
Summary: Its school holidays and Dean meets a girl on his afternoon run.
Warnings: There’s sex

Dean’s eighteen years old. His body is in the best shape it would ever be. He runs … his long legs and strong arms fall into a comfortable rhythm as his feet hit the asphalt. He has earphones pulsing in his ears. The music playing on his walkman drowns out the sounds of the cars that occasionally pass him.

It’s become part of a ritual. Get up, go to school, work in the garage, run, but since it’s school holidays, he starts his run a little later than usual. He doesn’t run as though something’s chasing him, it’s always been for his pleasure, never as a punishment.

He can feel the blood course through his veins, his heartbeat a steady building thump, thump, thump, against his chest. He pushes himself a little bit further everyday and the slight burn in his chest is his way of knowing he’s close to meeting his limit.

He slows his pace, turns and runs down the stone slabs that lead to the beach. Then he stops.

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Another day, another shift done. She takes off her sandals, lets her feet sink into the wet sand. It tickles her toes and she giggles. She can feel the setting suns heat between her shoulder blades.

A quick look around makes it clear that she is alone. She throws down her sandals, followed by her apron, her pink and white uniform from the ice cream parlor in town. Her shiny name tag reflects in the sun Hello my name is: Emma. She keeps on the headband that keeps her unruly dark hair out of her face. She wonders about her knickers and bra, feels a bit hesitant but another scan up and down the silent beach is enough encouragement for her to discard them as well.

Shivers run up and down her spine as the water crashes against her warm body. She walks forward deeper and deeper until she has to start kicking to keep her head above the water. Waves tugging at her, trying to force her back to the shore.

The thought suddenly occurs to her If Mother knew what I was doing now… So Emma turns around and makes her way towards the shore. She lets the waves do the hard part of carrying her back; she floats ever so lightly. In the shallow water she finds her feet. She plays with the water one last time as to thank it for cooling her down. Then she notices him … just standing there … staring at her.

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She looks like an angel, the few rays of sunlight bounce off her naked skin and golden brown hair. She freezes at the sight of him and Dean realizes that he’s staring. Staring at her breasts, her hips, her cunt.

He turn around quickly, takes the headphones out of his ears and hopes she’ll advance to her clothes.

“Sorry … I … I didn’t mean to intrude …” he says.

He notices that she’s gone quiet and when he turns to look at her, she’s gone. He spots her running away from him not looking back and he can’t help but laugh. She must have just pulled on her dress and grabbed the rest before she took off like an arrow shot from a bow. Her panties stay behind.

Dean picks them up, laughs at the small pink hearts. He places the earphones back in his ears and starts his jog back home.

He doesn’t usually run the same route twice but so far this week he’s run the same one every day. He ends up on the beach staring into the setting sun, hoping to find her there again. Everyday ends in disappointment.

He steps out the shower, water still dripping off him. He dries himself off, peers through the door to see Sam already sleeping. Dean digs underneath his clothes and finds the pink hearted cloth where he hid it before stepping into the bathroom.

He can’t help feel a slight twitch in his cock as he rubs the fabric between his fingers and remembers her body. He closes his eyes as he starts to rub his hand hard against his stiffing length. Faster, faster, harder and harder and then finally … release. He cleans himself before he turns off the light and heads back into the bedroom. He folds them up and hides them underneath his mattress.

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Emma watches him from the pier, waits till he turns and starts to jog away. His strong arms swaying next to his body, his muscles flex every time his feet fall on the ground. She watches as he starts down the stairs, stares at the water and finally turns and heads back up the stone slabs.

She waits till he’s out of view before she starts her walk home. She’s been late every night this week but her mother knows she likes to walk on the beach this time of year so she doesn’t say anything about it.

She wraps the towel around herself and starts to rummage around in her underwear drawer looking for her favourite pair. That’s when Emma realizes, she must have left them behind.

Oh God! No, no, no … is all she can get out in a hushed tone so that her mother doesn’t hear her.

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Dean runs the beach route another two times before he decides to give up. It’s early on Saturday morning when he changes his route, runs by the grocer and the garage and as he’s about to turn around the corner, he spots her.

He almost runs into a trash can and misses it by millimeters, only clipping his hand on the sharp edge. He moves across the road, heads towards the ice creams parlor, blood starting to drip from the gash in his hand, but he has to see if it’s her. He has to be sure.

Emma spots him as he starts to move around some people and she notices him clutching his bleeding hand. Without thinking twice she unties her apron and starts walking towards him. He opens his mouth to say something, although since she’s started touching him, all logic thought has left him. Her fingers quickly start working the apron, wrapping it around his hand.

She doesn’t look at him, at his face, just tries to stop the bleeding. She drags him into the back where they keep the first aid kit and she holds his hand over the sink, letting the cool water wash away the drying blood.

You’ll need stitches ... as soon as the words leave her mouth, she feels a flush warm her cheeks and quickly adds ... and I want my knickers back.

Your ... uh … knickers? Dean stutters as she starts to dry his hand and wrap it in a bandage. Yes, my knickers. The ones you stole. She can’t believe the words coming out of her mouth. She starts to pack up the kit and put everything away when suddenly he’s next to her. Close enough for her to feel his breath on her skin.

Thanks he whispers and takes the kit from her hands placing it on the counter behind her. Leans into her and softly kisses her forehead.

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They’ve been going steady for almost a month. Holding hands and stealing kisses whenever they can. They lie on the beach staring at the stars, giggling and chatting next to the bonfire they made out of driftwood. How about a late night swim, or are you afraid of sharks? She asks as she starts to unbutton his shirt.

Now? Really? He smiles nervously as she starts to work on his buckle. Whoa, Em, you're serious. She laughs and pulls his belt out from around his body and throws it behind her where it falls on top of his shirt.

Yeah, now, naked … what, you don’t want to see me naked? Oh wait … that’s right, you’ve done that already. He blushes and Emma can’t help but laugh. She pushes him on his back and straddles him, feels him pressing against her, his cock already half hard. She takes off her blouse to reveal her supple breasts, he didn't even notice she wasn't wearing a bra.

Dean laughs as he flips her over onto her back, pressing himself as close to her as he can. Did I ever tell you how beautiful you looked that day? He cups her breast and kisses her neck. She hardly manages a moan from under him and she can feel him smile in approval against her skin.

The blanket is covered in sand and she can feel it rub against her ass as he pulls her pants and her underwear down her knees. When he settles between her legs again, he’s naked too. She can feel him press against her opening, rubbing ever so lightly against her clit. She throws back her head and gasps. Dean … He kisses her, swallows any other words she wanted to try and utter.

She has her arms around him, over him, rubbing against his neck and back. They break the kiss, both breathless. She tries again Please … God … He moves his one hand down between her thighs and starts to stroke into her wet heat, moving his fingers up and down. She can't help the sound that escapes her as he thrusts two fingers into her. Dean, now, please … yes!

He teases her with his fingers, feels her writhe beneath him, fucking herself on his fingers. He can hardly keep himself from coming as her breath hitches and she clenches around him. She wraps her legs around him, urges him higher up.

He doesn’t know how she does it but all of a sudden he’s on his back, her on top of him again. It feels like he’s on fire as she rubs against him and he desperately tries not to come undone. He moans as her hand takes his cock in a firm hold and strokes over it a few times. She eases herself down onto him and starts to move against him in a slow rhythm. She takes him in deep, lifting herself slightly and ever so slowly before plunging back down again. Up, down, back, forth, keeping the rhythm steady to drive him mad. Hardly able to breathe and resting against his chest with her hands, they both come, orgasms following through each of them.

She eases off him and he winches at her movement. Do you really have to leave tomorrow? She askes with a wish in her heart that the answer will be No. He doesn't say anything, just turns so he can see her face. He cups her cheek and rests a soft kiss on her forhead and she can feel the tears gather in her eyes cause she knows the answer is an unspoken Yes.

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The tires ground on the gravel as he stops infront of her. His little brother sitting next to him makes him look older than he is. She sees them talking before he gets out and walks up to her. You came. She says with a warm smile. I had something of yours I needed to return. He takes her underwear out of his pocket and gives her a grin. She can't help but laugh but with that she also starts crying and falls into his arms Don't go ... Dean ... I love you. His arms tighten their hold around her I love you too Em. He lightly pushes her away and lets her go, still clucthing the piece of cloth and turns on his heel. She stands and watches as the black Impala drives away from her.

They're almost out of town when he notices Sam staring at his hand clutching the steering wheel. Between his white knuckles he's still got a pair of white knickers with pink hearts.

END.

MEME!! Day 2!!

2008-12-25T08:23:48Z

I've been tagged by blueberryapple

The rules are...
- that for 8 days you have to post something that made you happy that day.
Tag 8 people to do the same.

I'm not tagging anyone .. you're more than welcome to do if you feel HAPPY!!

I really wish I was tagged sooner coz the last couple of days I've been extremely happy :D

DAY 2:

Yesterday went by rather quickly and I forgot to do my posty ..

What made me happy was a small little phonecall at the end of the day. ;)

Stay tuned for the next few days to see what makes me happy :)

MEME!!! Day 1!!

2008-12-23T09:04:19Z

I've been tagged by blueberryapple

The rules are...
- that for 8 days you have to post something that made you happy that day.
Tag 8 people to do the same.

I'm not tagging anyone .. you're more than welcome to do if you feel HAPPY!!

I really wish I was tagged sooner coz the last couple of days I've been extremely happy :D

DAY 1:

Today I'm happy because ... Santa is coming to my house tonight! (We're gonna dress up my dad and I'm gonna be driving him around the block :D

Stay tuned for the next few days to see what makes me happy :)

CHRISTMAS!!!!

2008-11-27T05:34:03Z

YES!!! It's that time of the year again ....

MY HOME:

♪ 'tis the season to be jolly ♪ FA LA LA LA LA ... LA LA LA ♪

Fanfic - By request

2008-11-26T17:22:39Z

Title: Too late to apologize
Author: jacoba06
Pairing: Jo/Dean
Rating: R
Prompt: A friend of mine requested that I write him a story, after we had a heated discussion yesterday .. luckily we weren’t in the same room or else God knows what would have happened! LoL! :P

The door slams shut. He rests his head against its dark wood. His fist lands softly on it as he hears the click of the lock. He pleads with her to open it, to talk to him. Her voice carries her anger across when she shouts to him to just go away.

She emerges ten minutes later to find him sitting with his back against the bed facing the bathroom door. His arms are resting on his knees and his head is resignedly resting on his arms. Talk to me … but she ignores him as she places her toiletries in her duffle next to her side of the bed.

Can you at least acknowledge that you heard me apologize? Still she stays silent. She doesn’t even look up. Just pulls her jacket closer that she picked up from the floor where she threw it in her rage as they came in. He pushes himself off the floor, stands around awkwardly for a second. Damn it Jo, look at me. I told you she meant nothing. It was a long time ago, long before I even met you. His voice starts to rise with each syllable.

You can’t leave, not like this … Jo, please … I don’t know what you want me to say, tell me what to say. He catches hold of her arm as she tries to swing her duffel onto her shoulder. He makes her drop the bag and in a swift move his ears are ringing as her hand lands on his cheek. Anger flares in her eyes as she stares back at his surprised gaze. Then she hits him again a dull thud as her fist falls on his chest. She catches him by surprise again and almost knocks the wind out of him. He catches her fist as it comes towards him for a second time. She struggles in his grip, but he pulls her in close. He presses his lips against hers.

They pull apart for a few brief seconds before she leans in and kisses him back hard. Her anger burns even brighter, searing into him. She reaches down, finds him hard as she rubs against him through his jeans. He grunts into her mouth, the touch stealing his breath. He throws her onto the bed as both starts to rid themselves of clothes. Skin rubs against skin. He’s forgotten how soft she is, how perfect her body is under the layers of plaid shirts and heavy jackets.

They curl into each other, him slightly on top of her and she pushes hard on his shoulders to flip him over onto his back. She straddles him, impaling herself hard and fast onto his cock. He moans and his fingers dig deep into her hips, bruising the soft flesh. It’s fast, for both of them, coming with strangled gasps as they claw and grasp at each other. She sags forward onto his chest, shutting her eyes and breathing heavily. I’m sorry. She slides off him, lays down in his arms, her fingers gently touching where she had punched him before. I’m sorry too …

When she wakes up, she can hear him in the shower. She blushes and smiles to herself as she remembers his brothers words Remember Jo, there’s nothing like make up sex, so don’t just forgive after his first apology, make him work for it.

Comments are ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

MEME!!

2008-11-10T05:40:03Z

WOW, I haven't done one of these in ages!!!!!

Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

I was tagged by blueberryapple

01. What's the last DVD you watched?
I watched Hocus Pocus last night.

02. What are you wearing at the moment?
A longsleeved pink shirt that has light pink, dark pink and gold stripes on it.

03. Who is your favourite writer?
At the moment local writer Deon Meyer, but I also love James Patterson and Nicolas Sparks.

04. What is your favourite scent?
Lace by Yardley

05. What's that one movie you can watch over and over again and never get tired of?
The Notebook, Titanic, Alvin and the Chipmunks (their first animated movie not the last one) ... there's so many of them!

06. What do you drink the most?
Tea, maybe 4 or 5 times a day

07. Is there a useless thing that you cannot brace yourself to throw out?
Oh yes! I have a whole suitcase full of stuff! I gather all tipes of shit! hahaha

08. What is your occupation? What do you do there?
I'm an accounting clerk, I do peoples books, their VAT and PAYE returns for the receiver of revenue.

09. What did you want to be when you grew up?
A gymnist, even though I have NO athletic bone in my body!

10. What are your favorite song(s) of the moment?
Kings of Leon ... basically their whole cd (Only by the Night) it's awesome!

11. Which characters are overrated?
Ruby in SPN

12. What 3 people would you invite to dinner?
This is an evil question, why can I only invite 3? Ok, let's see ... Henco, blueberryapple and my sister. Reason being that Henco can cook up a storm, my sister as well, and the awesome blueberryapple ... well somebody has to help me eat all that AWESOME food! hahaah

13. What is your current desktop?
The photo of Henco and me at the wedding we went to.

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
She's made of AWESOME! I love her to bits!

15. What are you afraid of?
Losing a loved one .... never finding the love of my life or letting him slip through my fingers.

16. Where would you love to go in your next holidays?
Somewhere I've never been before with a close friend to enjoy it with.

17. What are you into right now?
Reading, writing, singing and annoying the crap out of people at work!

18. What did you do today?
Woke up, at 4:30am to be at work at 6am. Got dressed and at the moment instead of working, I'm doing this meme! :)

19. What do you want?
Dangerous question!! I want; to be happy all the time! Find my true love and get married and have babies and generally BE HAPPY! I want to get things sorted out at work once and for all, and not have to have eyes in the back of my head to not be stabbed in the back. I want all my friends to be happy and loved and for them to know how much they mean to me!

20. What should you be doing right now?
Working ... that's why I got up at 4:30am

21. What's the meaning behind your LJ username/name/nicknames you go by?
Nothing special, I wasn't very creative when I thought of my username, so I just took my own name and added the month/day of my birthday :)

TAGGING: kerrsmith2306 ; moondropz ; xfirefly9x ; eesia ; vunadiwai ; ckll ; nitro26 ; sarah_p ; lovetheguys

Drabble

2008-10-27T09:44:36Z

I scanned a photo for my sister where she is still very small and peeking over my dad's shoulder and it totally inspired a drabble so here it is :)

Title: Broken souvenirs
Author: Jacoba06
Rating: PG
Characters: Jo; Dean; Bill; John
Word count: 100
Prompt: Like I said a picture inspired me ...

She peeks over his shoulder just as the camera snaps. Little did she know that would be the last photo ever taken with him.

:::

Sounds filter up from the bar, laughter filling her room. It’s her dad’s voice she hears, telling jokes to the other man. He said he has two boys; he’ll bring them round sometime.

:::

Everyone’s wearing black, the bar feels cold. She sits outside with the two boys, when the older one says it’s ok to cry.

:::

There’s frame next to her bed, in it is a pigtailed girl, peeking over her daddy’s shoulder.

FanFic

2008-10-26T17:40:41Z

Title: Forever …
Author: Jacoba06
Rating: PG13
Characters/Pairing: Pam/Jesse
Prompt: I saw that picture of JDM playing guitar in PS I love you and just couldn’t resist ….

He plays the guitar and touches the strings as though he’s making love to it. Gently he moves his fingers to create different notes. He’s the type of guy her friends warned her about; tattoo on his arm, a chain hanging loosely from his ripped jeans and a strap of leather around his wrist.

He singles her out with his eyes. The music moves her, making her hips sway. He plays for her, she dances for him …

:::

Another band takes to the stage. Their beat starts to fill the room as he makes his way through the crowd towards her. He doesn’t take his eyes off her, afraid that if he blinks, she’ll disappear.

They spend the most of summer together after that night and she can feel herself falling. The days get colder and the leaves change color. The heat of the night gets carried away on a light breeze.

:::

On a blanket in front of fireplace, he takes her, makes her his completely. He plays with her … moving his fingers on her body, creating music with her. She dances with him … sways her body in rhythm to his. His hand resting on the small of her back covering her dreams … Jesse Forever

Their bodies move together, synchronized as their music carries them both through waves of love. There’s never just one song, never just one dance.

In the morning she wakes up alone, naked and cold, the fire spent.

:::

She knew it was wrong to tell him, but she thought him strong … strong enough to handle her secret.

The night before just as they we’re falling asleep she told him she knew he was a hunter. She knew because the spirits told her. He whispered to her with a sly smile to tell them to cover their eyes, he didn’t want them stealing his moves.

:::

She had hoped like so many times before that the dreams, the visions were untrue … changeable.

There’s a chill in the air, a light wind blowing through the room moving the ashes in the fireplace as it creeps in from outside. She never noticed the small piece of paper blown off the little table next to the pushed back couch …

Went for coffee … be back soon …

xxx

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TEXTING!!!

2008-10-15T13:27:19Z

I totally just texted the loverly blueberryapple all the way in Holland from South Africa ... we so ROCK!!!!!!!

DRABBLE - CONTAINS SPOILER!!!

2008-10-15T07:41:41Z

So what started out as a fic (with a threesome) ended up to be a PG drabble ... I SUCK!!!

Here be the drabble ... CONTAINTS SPOILERS FOR 4.01

Title: Sight Unseen
Author: jacoba06
Rating: PG
Characters: Pamela Barns
Prompt: Supplied by the lovely joans23 : (intended for a threesome fic) nobody said that love was going to be kind
Word count: 100 Words

She sits on the kitchen floor staring at nothing but the darkness. She can smell the general direction in which she threw her plate of food in a fit of rage of her sudden incompetence.

She had her warnings … about the Winchester men, all three of them bringing trouble through the door with them. So many have been hurt or killed, yet when Bobby spoke to her she knew she had to follow a path, one that could … would probably end badly.

She can’t help the tears. No matter what, she can not bring herself to hate them ...

Comments are loved .. even for drabbles!

HAHA Pictures

2008-10-09T08:59:05Z

I found some pictures that totally cracked me up .. the fact that most of them are porny has NOTHING to do with it!! LOL!!

If you want more, let me know .... I gotz lots!!!

That's it for now .....

Fanfic: Kiss the hurtin' away

2008-10-04T14:24:06Z

So after I got some requestes for a second half, here it is ... comments are loved and welcomed ...

Title: Kiss the hurtin’ away

Author: jacoba06

Rating: PG

Characters/Pairing: Sam/Jo; Dean

Prompt: My requested second part of Just lay down beside me

She had hoped and prayed to be long gone by the time they came knocking, but being as huge as a whale and having to pee every two minutes kind of screwed up her timetable. She could tell by the look on Sam’s face as she opened the door that he had not told Dean he’d been to see her some months ago.

She’d forgotten about the suitcase still clenched in her hand. They weight of it suddenly a strain and it slips out of her hand. Did we catch you at a bad time … oh God, the baby … it isn’t coming is it? She’ll probably never forget the disgusted look on his face. She laughs so hard she feels her belly hop up and down. No, just getting things ready … for when that time comes.

It amazed her how Sam had once again moved back into the shadows, not speaking unless spoken too. Hey Sam, it’s a … been a while. He stares at his feet and only answers with a smile, afraid that if he looks at her, she’ll confirm he’s the father with one look. When his gaze does meet hers, his fears are realized and he begs her silently to not tell his brother.

:::

Over dinner, they catch Jo up on all that has happened, Dean leaves out the parts about seeing angels. Are we gonna dance around the fact that your pregnant all night or are you gonna tell us how you ended up that way? She once again catches a glimpse at Sam, his eyes still pleading for her not to tell. Come on Dean, you know I love to dance … nothing to tell … I got knocked up, end of story.

:::

The lights are turned down as the boys try to make themselves comfortable on the worn out couch and a spot on the carpet. Sam waits till he can hear his brother taking long deep breaths before slipping away to her room. He finds her curled up on a chair by the window staring into the darkness outside, tears streaking her face black with running mascara. Why … why didn’t you call me Jo? I would have come back to you, done the right thing … With the tilt of her head he could see the fury burning in her eyes You think I didn’t want to … you think … I didn’t pick up the phone a million times, just to put it back down again. You were trying to get your brother back … you had more than enough on your plate as it was. And now … he’s back Sam … your brothers back and you don’t want him to know it’s yours.

She turned her gaze back outside, Sam staring at the dirty dove brown carpet. Jo … She turned her head back to look at him Leave Sam … just go. Tomorrow, start a new day, fight the evils of the world … make it a better place for your kid. Sam couldn’t help the tears starting to gather in his eyes Jo … She gets up and moves towards the door Sam, go … just … just … just wake your brother and take me to the hospital.

:::

She wakes up to cooing noises, Dean holding a little bundle of pink flesh. He spots her looking over at them and with a grin heads toward the edge of her bed Doctor says he’s healthy and beautiful. I disagree … about the beautiful part that is. I don’t know why, but for some reason … he looks like Sam when he was a baby … soft and squishy like. Sam scoffs and also heads over to the side of her bed Yeah, like you’ve seen so many other babies to compare him with. He really is beautiful, Jo.

:::

She has a sling around her shoulder and neck, her little boy resting inside it, only his little feet peeking out at the edge I’m naming him William John … after my dad and yours. Dean approaches the car, slinging his duffel in the truck before slamming it shut, startling the baby and making it cry Jeez sorry Jo … forgot. Now that’s one sound I’m not gonna miss. Take care Jo, and remember if you ever need a babysitter … call Sam, hehehe.

She stands on the porch, playing with his toes, staring at the red lights of the Impala growing smaller and smaller as the car moves away from her.

Tada ... :)

Fanfic

2008-09-30T12:48:13Z

Heya all

I've heard from a friend .... I hope you know who you are ;P .... that he is very interested in what I write in my day to day entries ... hehehe, wouldn't you like to know! :D *evil grin*

So anyways, this weekend I got to do some reading in between all the workings and it inspired me to make a little time for some writing as well. I hopes you like and remember that I LOVE comments <3<3<3

Title: Just lay down beside me
Author: Jacoba06
Characters: Sam/Jo; Dean
Rating: R
Prompt: I read a book the weekend and was just so inspired that I had to write something and this is what I came up with … I hope you enjoy.

She had hoped and feared for both these days ... the day news will reach her of his death. And the day of his return. She ties her golden locks in a braid behind her head, straps her holster around her full hips, struggling to make the ends meet underneath her very pregnant belly.

:::

She still remembers that night, the night Sam Winchester found her. She knew it inevitable that someone would find her, no matter where she hid. She wanted a normal life, away from hunting demons and performing exorcisms ... away from hurt and pain and death.

That’s why she decided to stay here. It wasn’t the original plan ... she meant to keep moving, meant to cover up her tracks a lot better. Meaning never to be found. Yet there he was, soaked to the skin in the rain, but even that couldn’t hide the tears streaming down his cheeks I failed Jo, he’s gone … my brothers gone.

He felt defeated, he had let his brother down. He was alone in this world and didn’t know where to go or what to do and somehow he ended up on her front door step. He hadn’t slept for three days, and she could see fatigue taking its toll. He didn’t want to eat, said he just came to tell her himself.

When she got back from the kitchen after returning the plate of untouched food, she found him asleep on the couch. She fetched a blanket from her bedroom and when she covered him, he sleepily rested his hand on her wrist I don’t … can’t … she shushed him and gently wiped his hair from his forehead Shh, sleep … rest … we’ll talk tomorrow. He smiled but she’ll never forget the sadness in his eyes. She leaned down and kissed him on his cheek.

She turned to walk away, to let him rest when she heard him slurring still loosely holding her wrist Jo, I don’t want to be alone … I can’t … she could hear that it took a lot out of him even to speak. She lay down beside him, let him wrap his arm around her waist and it didn’t take long at all before she could feel him breathe deep, long breaths. Sleep had finally come …

His arm was heavy and at the risk of waking him, she stayed there with him. As she waited for sleep to take her, she lay thinking of Dean … how from the first time she met him, she felt some strange bond with him. Maybe it was because she recognized the hurt he felt, maybe it’s because … maybe it was just cause he didn’t try to charm her pants off that night they met. He was different … he reminded her so much of her daddy.

She couldn’t help the tears, she tried to still herself, but she could feel Sam tighten his grip, pulling her closer. They cried together, sorrow and sleep overtaking them in the end. She woke from the sun shining brightly through the holes in the curtains. She could feel Sam still sleeping behind her, his arm still wrapped tightly around her. She could feel something else too … she couldn’t help the smile that curved her lips. She blushed and could feel the heat form between her thighs and that made her smile and blush even more.

She tried to loosen herself from his grip and she stilled when he started to move. He woke drowsily but at once discovered what … state … he was in. A hot flush came to his cheeks and he tried to back away from her. She turned her head and placed her hand on his face. She placed a soft kiss on his lips and shifted her hips back pushing up against him.

She reached back, stroking him through his jeans, undoing the button and pulling down the zipper as if she’d done it a dozen times before and had a skilled hand. He moved his hand up, cupping her small breast and deepening his kiss. He pulled away Jo, I can’t … this isn’t why I’m here. She knows there was an urgency in her voice, but she couldn’t help it, no matter how hard she tried I know, Sam, but I need this … I need you.

She guided him as he slipped into her from behind. They moved together awkwardly, struggling to find a comfortable rhythm on the too small couch. Sam tried to be gentle with her, a steady hand on her hip. Whispering her name over and over softly in her ear. Afterwards he lay in her, neither wanting to break the connection. They didn’t speak, they fell asleep in each others embrace. When she woke up again, Sam was gone. She didn’t even feel him move behind her …

:::

That was eight months ago. She stayed put once she realized what was causing the nausea and the swollen feet. At first she was angry … at Sam, at herself, even at Dean. He died, he was never suppose to die, not like that. And now … now he’s back and she’s carrying his brother’s child. She closes the suitcase on her bed, has a final look around the bedroom and takes the suitcase and her keys and starts to make her way towards the door.

She leaves a months rent on the kitchen counter, she knows they need the money and wasn’t planning on her leaving now … she opens the door only to find a familiar pair of faces staring back at her Heya Jo, how’ve you been? Sam casts his eyes to the ground when she answers Dean Pregnant and you? She couldn’t help but smile at his answer Dead, but that’s wasn’t nearly as exciting as being pregnant.

Well there you go .... thanks for reading :P

Twitter

2008-09-26T05:34:18Z

At the request of the wonderful vunadiwai I added Twitter. It's fun ... the part that I've figured out. I'm under lions06 if anybody wants to join. COME ON *scoots you off* GO GET TWITTER!!!

Quote Meme

2008-09-17T05:32:19Z

When you see this, post another Supernatural quote in your LJ. Let's see how long this can go on.

Dean Winchester: That Constance chick, what a BITCH!!

- Pilot Episode

SP - Song Suggestion

2008-09-15T06:50:40Z

So I watched a movie last night and laughed my ass off .. it's a South African movie called "Bakgat" and I loved it! It's about this popular girl who's dating the most popular guy in school and he decides she's not good enough for him anymore and dumps her.

She of course gets back at him by going after the nerd of the school and turning him into a jock and making him the most popular. I suppose it's a lot like "She's all that" with Freddie Prince Jr. but in a way totally not you know. So in the end it turns out that the "nerd" knew about the girl's plan and in the end when he is all popular dumps her pretty much the way her boyfriend did in the beginning of the movie. Only during the movie she really does fall for him and he finds that out thanks to his very very horny friends in the end.

Anyway the reason for this post is because of a song they played in the movie .. a local artist .. and it's absolutely wonderful! So I'm posting two links here: One for the video on YouTube, and a link to download the song if you like it (please let me know what you think of it!!!!)

Now in the video it's the girl (man, if I was lesbo, this girl's eyes would totally turn me on! .. but I'm not, so I'm just gonna say I love her eyes, the make-up and the color .. beautiful!!) , and the "nerd". The thing that put me off about the video is the guy wearing so much make-up. It's just wrong!! Other than that a great video for the song, and an awesome song!

LINKS: YOUTUBE and THE SONG : SHAUN V - NOT HUMAN

And here are some links to the trailer, and another song from the movie ... it's in Afrikaans, but I think some have subtitles in English.

TRAILER & SONG : ALBERT DE WET - JOU LYF

Please let me know what your thoughts are on these .... I would find it very "entertaining"!! :D

FICLET

2008-09-11T08:08:02Z

Thanks to my dear friend engel82 for her beta, here is the ficlet with some tweeks.

Comments are always loved!!

Title: You weren’t there
Author: Jacoba06
Rating: PG
Characters: Dean, Sam, OFC
Prompt: Heard a song and got the idea …

He had his birthday a few days ago, some of the guys decided it would be good to throw him a party. The halls were buzzing with people, all with a drink in their hand. Excited shouts of congratulation filling the apartment as new people arrive.

He had his phone in his pocket, didn’t want to miss the call. Old friends and new all start to sing as she comes out of the kitchen with a huge chocolate cake the words Happy Birthday Sam written in blue icing. There’s a table filled with gifts and cards, a book to write messages in for those who just happened to stop by and wanted to leave something.

He never gets the expected call …

:::

Another year, another birthday. This time he says no party and makes her promise, instead they go for dinner, just the two of them. The phone still close at hand.

They get home late, wrapped in each others arms. She says he has to work for his present and he does. He only gets the rest of his presents the next day. Again there’s no call.

:::

Each year that passes is the same, friends and laughter and joy. Cards fill the postbox days before the event and this year they celebrate his birth as well as his fantastic grades. He leaves his phone at home when they decide to go out and join some friends at the club.

When they return there’s no message, in his heart it was still hoped for …

:::

This year she’s not there. He hopes the day will go by like any other unnoticed by his brother as all the years before. He stares out the window. The road and trees flying by like the hours of the day.

When he comes out of the bathroom ready to climb onto the old sagged mattress, there’s hardly place to sit. Deans grinning from ear to ear … It’s for all the years I missed …

BETA ANYONE

2008-09-10T11:46:02Z

I wrote a ficlet thingy and my original beta that I always use says that she has read something very similar, so I need another beta to know if it's worth posting.

Any one who's interested drop me a comment please. Thankies :)

Header - Icons

2008-09-09T08:44:24Z

Man this guy drives me insane!

Anyway's changed my header and added a few of my old icons to my userpics, since someone (you know who you are ;P) said I needed a few more.

I don't wanna be funny or anything, but I made some pretty kick-ass icons, even if I have to say so myself!!!

ANYHOO, hope you enjoy the rest of this Tuesday ... I'm waiting for lunchtime right now ..... COME ON 12pm!!!

A little something ...

2008-09-03T09:01:24Z

Man, it feels like ages since I last wrote something. I was walking in the mall the other day and this idea just popped into my mind, and this is what I came up with. I'm thinking of making a posty thingy with a link to everything I've ever written ... yay or nay? What do you suggest?

Anyway here it is, comments are always appreciated and loved!!

Title: Now you’re gone …
Author: Jacoba06
Rating: PG
Pairing: Dean/OFC
Prompt: None, again just an idea I got …

She hates ..

… walking into a shopping centre and hoping that she’ll spot him in a store. Thinking she might catch a glimpse of him looking at a book or a tape where he stands considering to buy it.

… listening to the radio, or to a mix cassette, cause all the songs seem to remind her of him. If it’s a love song, it tells about what she felt for him, and then there are the songs that remind her of the day he left and how it broke her heart into thousands of pieces like the gravel she falls to on her knees next to his grave.

… writing stories the way she used to. All the stories seem to be about them. How they met, how they loved, but it always ends the same, with the words he spoke ever so softly the day he died in her arms.

… going to the movies. She goes to the late show like they always did, him buying popcorn for himself and chocolate for her. She never sees him, knows he won’t be there, but she can’t help but search the crowd for his familiar face. She sits in the back row … alone. She still doesn’t eat any popcorn.

… laying in bed at night staring at the ceiling. Her mind wandering to him, the time they spent together laughing and dreaming about the rest of their lives. She wipes away the wetness on her cheeks and sleep finally comes.

… that everything still smells like him, and sadness overtakes her when she puts on the jacket he loved so much. It belonged to his father, like that old Chevy Impala. His brother drives it now, and another has taken his spot in the shotgun side.

She hates life without him, but knows he left so his brother could live. He saved her too, in more ways than one. He was her first in so many ways, and she’ll always be thankful that she had him in her life, even if it was for only awhile.

So that's it for now ....

HUGS to all, and I hope you enjoyed this little piece of mine ...

MEME!!!!

2008-08-26T05:47:12Z

As promised to kerrsmith2306here is the meme I took from him. PLEASE fill it out for me, cause I LOVE memes!!! I love getting to know my peeps!

01. Name:
02. Birthday:
03. Where do you live:
04: What are you studying/What are you working as:
05. What makes you happy:
06. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
07. What is particularly good/bad about my LJ:
08. An interesting fact about you:
09. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. Favorite place to be:
11. Favorite lyric:
12. Best time of the year:
13. Weirdest food you like:

RECOMMEND
1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A song:
4: A band:

FANDOM
1. Favorite Fandom:
2. OTP/OT3:
3. Image / Interesting Journal I should add:

PLUS
1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Put this in your lj so I can tell you what I think of you?

So there you go ... now come on, start commenting!!!!

Walt Whitman - Song Of Myself

2008-08-19T16:37:34Z

I watched a movie called: With Honors, one of my all time favourite movies with Joe Pesci and Brandon Fraser and in the end they read from Walt Whitman's Leaves of Grass. I bought myself the book but have never read it but after watching the movie, found the passages they read, and it is absolutely beautiful. I just had to share:

I am of old and young, of the foolish as much as the wise,
Regardless of others, ever regardful of others,
Maternal as well as paternal, a child as well as a man,
Stuff'd with the stuff this coarse and stuff'd with the stuff that is fine.

I bequeath myself to the dirt to grow from the grass I love,
If you want me again look for me under your boot-soles.

You will hardly know who I am or what I mean,
But I shall be good health to you nevertheless,
And filter and fibre your blood.

Failing to fetch me at first keep encouraged,
Missing me one place search another,
I stop somewhere waiting for you.

Needless to say I cried my eyes out. It was just so amazing and the actors are just as awesome. I strongly advise anyone and everyone to watch this movie.

Have a good night all and sleep tight!

Who knew??

2008-08-15T13:38:58Z

O.M.G.!! So why has no one ever told me to watch Firefly?? I love it! I'm through the series and busy with the movie .. it's awesome!

Kaylee is totally my favourite : "Not speaking to you Captain." I mean come on, adorable, no?!?!?!?!

And then Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles, awesome as well! Not that hot on John, but other than that, awesome!

*skips around* Gonna make me some wallies ... you wanna?

*frowns* That is after I work some this weekend! BLEH!

HAPPY WEEKEND EVERYBODY!!!

TTFN!!!